My emotions are so wild now. They come and go without any warnings. I feel sad and lonely and empty, and then I feel I’ve grown and I’ve met Demeter and walked at her side.
The heartbroken Demeter wandered the earth looking for her lost daughter, Persephone. When she find out she was gone and taken by the god of the underworld, Hades, she was so sad she decided to take leave from her duties as the goddess of harvest and fertility, with devastating consequences.
The earth began to dry up, harvests failed, plants lost their fruitfulness, animals were dying for lack of food and famine spread to the whole earth. That was how I felt.
Franca, my dear mentor, she said our feminine energy is so powerful, infact we have to power to give birth and we give death too.
So .. I remembered, I know nature’s cycle of life and death, I remembered about dry winter and blooming spring. I can see the wheal of seasons, the cycle the moon, the cycles within my body.
When you hold death within your body you truly experience the cycle of life and death. I’m aware of the sacredness of live and now I honour death too.
I remembered my body knows the way.
I allow my self to find a space for death to happen. Not only physically ..
I remember the universe knows.
I remembered I didn’t decide to become a medicine woman I was one.
I remembered I didn’t decide to become a Mother I was one.
I remembered the power within my womb, I remembered all the spiritual babies I’ve given birth to, all my intentions manifested. I remembered Baby Oak is a child of the earth not my child.
I see my feelings passing by, I observe I try not to judge or name them. I acknowledge them.. I don’t try to stop them. I stay with the pain and allow myself to feel and let go. I know a rainbow will show up soon.